I have 25 years invested in my business, Robison Service. It's like a child to me. Yet I can only be there part time, because of my other commitments. I worry when they struggle, and blame myself. I wish I was there more. I wish I could run it more capably.
I began this writing career, but the book industry is changing just as the music industry did. It's not clear whether I can derive much of my support in a world where so much content gets out for free.
I feel a great desire to help others growing up or living on the autism spectrum. To that end I serve on boards and committees, where I try to push for beneficial change. Do I succeed? Only time will tell.
Then there are the groups I speak to. They seem to appreciate what I do, and to the extent such engagements come along, they are great. Speaking takes me all over the world and my efforts seem appreciated. That much seems like a win win situation
What about the photography? People often ask why I dont do a book of my photos. But making a book is a vast undertaking, and photo books don't sell many copies as a rule.
Like most people, I have many choices for how I spend my time. I want to do good, but I want to feel economic security too, and I don't anymore. It's so hard to strike a balance, to know the best way to proceed.
Can we ever know?
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Posted by John Elder Robison at 2:50 PM